Leave me for taking me up

I was so sad as I couldn’t meet Abdee’s friends. I didn’t know how about Abdee’s perception of me in front of his friends. The next night, after taking a bath and clothing, I sat in front of my mirror.

‘Abdee, do you feel the same way with me?’ I mumbled. Slowly, I combed my hair. Someone knocked at my door.

‘Who is it?’

‘Nadia, it’s me,’ I heard Abdee’s voice. Then I opened the door.

‘I’m sorry I couldn’t accompany you yesterday. It’s just one of my carelessness, I fell into a muddy grass and I don’t want to make you ashamed of it.’

‘It’s fine. Are you free now?’

‘What?’

‘ Please, follow me,’ he pulled me out. ’Wait, why didn’t you take your shawl? It’s cold outside,’ he suggested me. Having reached my brown shawl, I was back to him.

It’s unforeseen that Abdee brought me into his private place, on the top of old building. It was a flat floor without any roof covering it, because long ago, the construction was suddenly stopped.

‘Okay, close your eyes now,’ he asked me.

‘What?’

Not answering my question, he took my shawl and tied it to my eyes.

‘What is it, Abdee?’ I wondered.

‘Just hold my hand.’ Then, he brought me upstairs.

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‘One.., two.., three…,’ he opened my eyes. Wow, I couldn’t believe what I saw.

‘How beautiful it is, Abdee. How can you do it?’ I found that it was a very romantic place. Under the star lights, there’s a table with two chairs, candles, some flowers around it, and the most surprising thing is the big painting beside them, the painting of Eiffel.

He guided me to the table and let me sit.

‘I know you like Paris so much,’ he said.

‘Obviously I do,’ I added.

‘Let’s try my cooking. It is my favorite recipes.’ He pointed to spaghetti and boiled cheese potatoes in front of us.

‘Abdee, you haven’t told me what for it is.’

‘Please accept this as my apologizing for leaving you yesterday. I know you’re annoyed with me.’

‘Oh, never mind. It wasn’t your fault.’

After it, we were busy with our foods.

Suddenly, Abdee stopped eating and said, ‘Actually, there’s something I gotta tell you.’

‘Hm?’

‘Tomorrow, I have to leave for Aussie, for my scholarship there.’

‘Pardon?’ I was almost choked.

‘Yes…, since I had been accepted in my high school, I attempted to get a scholarship about the student exchanging. And after lots hard works, finally, I get it. I can continue my study there, until graduating from college.’

‘….’

‘Forgive me, Nad. I’m sorry for not telling it to you before. I wanna give you a surprise. I intended to tell you yesterday, in my leaving party.’

‘Your leaving party?’

‘Yes, I know that I’ve laid you. It was a farewell party made by my friends for me.’

I couldn’t say anything. I just thought that I was unimportant for him because he didn’t ask my opinion for it before. For the first time after twelve years being his pal, I felt that I didn’t know him anymore.

‘This is for you,’ he stretched out a box and opened it.

‘Please wear it to count how much time I’m leaving you…’ he put a brown wrist clock on me, ‘…and wait for my turning to bring you with me. I promise.’

‘…’

I nodded my head and let my tears down along my cheeks.

Leave me for taking me up

Like yesterday, Bogor was raining all day. Fortunately, it was rather calm now. I gazed my reflection in the mirror. I was so excited for Abdee invited me to attend his friend’s party. It was nearly five o’clock, why didn’t he come yet? While I was waiting for him, I went on to read a teenlit novel, the fourth one I read this week.

After several pages I read, suddenly, I fell into a daydreaming. I imagine that Abdee would introduce me in front of his friends as his girl friend. Abdee and I have been being a friend since we were still in kindergarten. He lived next to my house. I played with him in most of my days. Unfortunately, we were separated in high school, but I didn’t deny that I had something special to him. I hoped, like in novels, that he felt the same way too and would tell it to me in a special way, surprising me.

‘Hey, Nadia. Nadia! Halloo…,’ he shook my shoulders. I stopped my imagination.

‘What are you thinking about, Nad?’ Abdee asked me.

‘Oh, no, nothing. Why are you late?’

‘I’m sorry. I have to do something at first. Now, are you ready?’

Then, I stood up to show him that I was ready.

‘Since an hour ago,’ I replied him.

He stared me up to down. I tied my hair in modern hair bun. I wore a long sweet yellow shirt inside a bright green and white vest. For balancing the long sweater vest, I wore the calm yellow legging with a pair of boot shoes. For sweeter them all, there were silver O earrings in my ears. With this performance, I thought he wouldn’t be shy to introduce me as his girlfriend.

Simply he laughed. ‘Why do you laugh at me?’ I wondered.

‘Nothing, I just think that you’re so beautiful today,’ he said. ‘Have I told you it’s just a barbeque dinner?’

Oh, goodness. I just realized that I was overdress. I took a bow as I was so shy.

‘Hey, it’s okay. You look so beautiful tonight,’ Abdee tried to entertain me. Then, he held my hand. ‘Let’s go now.’ I followed him.

Outside, ‘How we get there, Abdee?’ I wondered as there’s nothing in front of my house.

‘On foot, of course. It’s just several blocks from here. Come on, we will be late,’ he pulled me out.

Some minutes later, I began to be tired. It was six blocks from my house, but Abdee still walked fast.

‘Abdee…, where is it? I’m tired,’ Abdee began to leave out me.

‘Come on, Nadia. It isn’t far anymore, one block again.’

I stopped my step and took a deep breath. I looked around breaking of my tiredness. I was attracted to a bright flower. It was so beautiful since it was wet, I get closer to it.

‘Nad, Nadia! Come on. We’ve been late,’ Abdee said from the far away. In front of him, there’s a house which door was open. Someone got out and greeted Abdee.

I walked hurriedly to them. It’s a carelessness of me, suddenly, I tripped over and fell.

‘Arrgh…,’ I grumbled. The grasses were wet and miry. I woke up my self and felt so bad. I couldn’t go on my way to attend that party while Abdee had got into the house.

“Abdee….’Hopelessly, I walked home alone.

*to be continued..

Her Photo

The sun had been shining so bright when suddenly Ipang found a photo several days ago. A special photo that was filling his dreams after he looked on it. He found it among a group of scrapheap in a housing garbage dump.

There was a girl, a beautiful girl, as the object in it. She was so pretty that could make Ipang think about her continuously and change him to be a daydreamer. Ipang acknowledged that he should not do it, because he realized that he was too poor for finding a spoon of rice, so how could he try to dream about a girl?

‘Excuse me, may I take your dumps?’ Ipang asked a woman who was sweeping on the terrace.

Looked at Ipang for a moment, the woman nodded and said, ‘Okey, wait a while.’ Listened it, Ipang sat on the pavement near the gate.

It is the fifth housing I visited this month. Where is she? Why can’t I find her?

Then Ipang took out a photo from his pocket and cleaned it with his hands carefully. Few seconds looked at it, he smiled. You make me always think about you. I really want to find who you are. I promise, I’ll find you wherever you are.

‘Here you are,’ the woman’s voice broke out his day dreaming. Ipang received the rag bag. After it, Ipang continued his trip door to door while kept seeing around.

‘She must be a princess in her house, in her palace. She’s elegant, kind, generous, and the most important of all, she’s really beautiful,’ Ipang talking to himself. He continued his imagination, ‘What is she doing, now? Is she watering her flowers in the garden? Or… she’s reading neatly on her terrace now. Oh, maybe she’s trying to cook various kind of food in her kitchen. Oh, my gosh… everything she does is beautiful for me.’ Ipang continued mumbling while walking along the road side.

Ipang was thinking about that girl in each activity, before going to work, before sleeping, after working and every time he could take a breath. That girl, a girl who was never absent in Ipang’s dream, had beautiful eyes, straight and long hair, bright skin and most of all, she had a very awesome smile on her photo. Ipang felt that he was falling in love with her just by looking at her photo. Although at the beginning Ipang was unconfidence, now he realized that he would regret along his life if he did not try to meet her once. She was his first love. He promised himself, that the craziest thing he did in his life must be telling that girl that he really admired her. He didn’t care how much brave he need to do that.

# @ # @

It was two months after Ipang found the photo when suddenly, Ipang looked the same girl in that photo was in a car. Waiting a traffic light, she opened the car window to give some coins to a beggar. Hurriedly, Ipang ran over her, but it was late. The light turned green and she was gone. The next day, at the same time, Ipang sat on bus stop near the traffic light. He was sure that she would pass this way again. Ipang has been waiting there for hours but there’s nothing. It was just the fifth day when he looked the same car brought his girl. Ipang followed that car by running as fast as he could. Till finally, the car lost on his sight by turning right into an elegant residence.

‘Hff.., blamey, she’s a rich. I’d have guessed it before,’ Ipang said to himself while settling his up-down breath. After feeling better, ipang started to find the girl’s house. Still with his rag bag, Ipang observed each house. Ipang scratch off the trash in the house dump.

‘Does she want to meet me? She’s a prince while I am a poor, how can he give me a welcome? Maybe just look at me can make her nauseous.’ Ipang blamed himself on and on.

‘Laura, you have to eat now. It is lunch time,’ a woman said to a girl in the garden.

That’s the girl, Ipang’s heart said. Ipang kept a deep watch on her.

# @ # @

Days after it, Ipang was watching Laura’s activity at home furtively. Although he’s just a dustman, he won’t give in. Slowly, Ipang tried to talk to her. In fact, Laura didn’t refuse to talk much with him, and it really made Ipang glad.

Saturday evening, encouraging himself, Ipang was ready to meet the beloved girl he admired and stated his feeling about her. Ipang brought some flowers he picked in the city garden. He didn’t forget to bring the photo, too.

‘Laura, Laura, what a beautiful name it is for a beautiful girl like you,’ Ipang smiled alone along the way. His steps were so light as he certainly knew what would he do later.

What he’d supposed was exactly happened. In that time, Laura was watering her flowers in front of her house. Looking his arrival, Laura stopped her activity and ran to the fence excitedly.

‘Hi, Laura. How do you do? This is for you,’ Ipang gave the flowers.

Laura jumped happily. ‘Thank, thank, thank you..’

‘You’re welcome,’ Ipang answered.

‘Laura, there’s something you’ve got to know. It’s about my feeling toward you. I…,’

CRAPP!!! Suddenly, Laura whipped flowers in her hand against Ipang.

‘Hwehehehe, you look soo fool…,’ then Laura jumped around by laughing away.

Ipang just smiled and said, ‘…I love you.’

‘… anyhow you are, Laura.’

it's about you

My life was fine

Before you came,

Everything went in its own way

Before you came,

And my dream was beautiful

Before you came.

You never told me why you did this

You never explained to me what did you do

You just come to my life,

My dreams,

And my thought

It seems not so easy right now,

Since you distract me

You make me wait for so long

Too long for me if I count it by my sense

You force me to have you in my life,

My dreams,

And my thought

At the moment,

My life is better

While I’m waiting for you,

Everything goes brighter

While I ‘m thinking of you,

My dreams are wonderful

When I’m having you in it

March 8, 2012 (08:52)